I am really big on names and their meanings. I think it goes back to my Christian upbringing. Reading the Bible, I learned that people were very careful in the names they chose for their children because they would live up to their names in essence. Also, people would change their names according to specific special events/occurrences that would happen in their lives.
My name is Jennifer and is said to mean "fair one". My middle name is LeAnn and means "light; beautiful woman". I never thought my names meant a great deal, but growing in my faith has led me to realize that my parents were inspired by the Heavenly Father to give me those names, and I understand why. You see, I have struggled with my weight since college. I have made bad decisions that have caused me to feel ugly. I have allowed myself to listen to the voice of the world that has told me I'm not beautiful, but that I'm worthless, not good enough etc. Knowing my Father the way I have come to in the last few years has made me realize that regardless of the mud and the muck, I am beautiful because I am made in HIS image. This means, when God looks at me, He sees His perfect son, Jesus. I know I am FAR from perfect, but how many times have you gazed upon your own children and just thought that life couldn't be any more beautiful? That's only a smidgen of what God sees when He looks at you, His beautiful creation.
So, my name is special. And I love it more today than I think I ever have because regardless of what others think, Truth tells me that I was well thought out. I was planned. I had a purpose long before I was ever in my mother's womb. I was deliberate. I was not a mistake. I was wonderfully made. I am a child of God, the everlasting Father. The Great I Am. The One Who Was and IS and Is To Come. I am royalty. And I don't say this arrogantly. I say this completely humbled that my Father would love me so much as to number the hairs on my head. That He would love me enough to be there with open arms, waiting for me to accept His gift of grace and forgiveness. And today, I accept that.
I am changed.